I love you!

today is not a good day, all I've done is cry and watch sappy tv!

So for the past couple of weeks I've searching for a job; checking the internet every day etc. Then I got ill last week after a few days in Falmouth visiting the lovely Daisy, and I got a huge boost of job searching energy, over the past two days I've applied for thirty or fourty jobs and have already had interviews for two! So hopefully a few more are on the way, because I can't wait to have a job again; I've been feeling a bit lost without a job, I have no purpose to my day!
I'm a bit nervous for an interview I've got tomorrow actually; it's for a receptionist job in a posh apartment building, I think everyone will have alot more experience than me!
Gonna go off to bed now.

absolutely love what this lady is wearing.

I'm not sure what's going on, it seems like one mistake is enough to cost me everything, serious down day today.

So I've abandoned this blog in favour of my tumblr recently, which is very sad but this one takes just that little bit more effort. Things have been kind of rough lately some recent medical news has thrown me off track and I'm not really sure what to do with myself. In other news I've very nearly finished uni which on the one hand is awesome but I'm not sure where to go next! I've been looking at university's in America to go and do a wildlife photography course out there, but I'll need a scholarship otherwise I'll never be able to afford it.

P.s I seem to continually sabotage myself and I could not tell you why.

Lily Allen.

what a sweetie!

So in recent news, I went to falmouth for a while with ma boys. Have been throwing up for a while now, foodpoisoning? bug? I don't know but I'm hungry.

Apologies.

For my abscence, I've had so much work to do I'm relatively sure it was crawling out of my mouth at one point. But, I oficially have a life again! Hurray!

You've been a bad girl...

...a very, very bad girl Gaga.

Okay so in videophone I was super embaressed for Lady Gaga, because, and I hate to say it, but she's no Beyonce in the womanly stakes. BUT, but, in Telephone they both look awesome because they aren't wearing matching onesies. Plus I can't get that song out of my head now!

Stuck.

So in reference to my last post, I have been given a brief (along with many others) which is to do a portrait involving, in some somehow, the word "egg"
...exactly, what the hell am I supposed to do with that?!
I've come up with, somehow making tiny little RIP signs and putting them in cooked eggs, to encourage a vegan message? Shit, I don't know, I have nothing better than that...help?

Just yolking around...

More Zooey.

she's so lovely! And I want that dress!

Also!

Yesterday was Le Pubs monthly vintage fayre, it went really well! So much better than last month (it was on the same day as the rugby so...) Anyway, I managed to sell a few bits and pieces and resisted the temptation of buying more stuff! Sam and I went giving out goodie bags the day before and alot of faces I recognised from that outing turned up, so, same again next month I think!

It's very belated but...

...here are some gig videos I promised! The first is in the Solus Bar in Cardiff, and the second two are in Wembley Arena in Landan.

Thrice

Glassjaw

Brand New

Cash

Ana Cabaleiro

could her pictures be any more wonderful?

Oh good...

...god, I need the loo right now but Gav the Scotsman is in the bathroom, relatively gross thing to write about but it's all that's on my mind right now!

Slacking

Apologies, this little corner of the interweb has been lacking in posts lately, it's been a rough few weeks. I'm just trying to get up to date with uni work and get better because I'm still a little feeble.

is my course actually getting me anywhere? if it is, is it getting me to the right place?

Psycho killer, que-ce que c'est...

It's...16:37 and I haven't had a cup of green tea yet it is possible this is armegeddon?! Been listening to Talking Heads again lately, they are awesome.

Just a little one.

About making digital photos look like polaroids.







Delish.

Today

I woke up up and my face looks squishier than it did yesterday.

So my newly formed (attempted) veganisism is going really well, i've had a few slip ups (like the lasange incident) but aside from that I'm getting used to it! I dont think I would have been anywhere near as successful if it wasn't for the blog of Naomi Rose, the gluttonous vegan, her recipes have been a life saver! They've also encoureaged me to actually cook stuff instead of just throwing it together! I'm of to make some sweet potato soup!

X Files

so much more than just good sci-fi!

"The sun never set on so glorious a human achievement."

The beautiful words of Nelson Mandela, soon to be played by Morgan Freeman in Invictus; awesome! A total dude being played by a total dude! I'm also super happy they are making a film about Mandelas struggle against racism; hopefully it will help people realise that racism is just an expression of self hatred, anyone who was happy with their own lives wouldn't hate so much on other people. Peace and love guys! It's ironic that I hate, hate, but it's true if people stopped being so cruel to each other, we could actually start trying to sort out our fucked up planet. I just wish people would open their eyes, get into someone elses shoes and try to understand, shiiit it's not that hard.

By far...

...the best part of my day.

The Goal...

I've been pretty lazy the past 2 days, I really hurt my shoulder and I'm struggling to do normal stuff, for example I'm using the mouse left handed; it feels weird! Anyway, so I've been feeling grumpy and sorry for myself and slacking on the uni work (in my defense it takes me like 10 minutes to write a sentence now!), BUT, Rohans mum sent him some photos and he in turn sent them to me and they are amazing! They are from the National Geographic best photos of the year and they have reminded me of what it is I am aiming for, so now I'm back on track and one day some of my photos will be included in there, even if it kills me!


(hehf!)

"The only thing you need for a film, is a girl and a gun."

I've been trying to find some awesome films to watch recently, I love kind of weirdly shot french films, of course "Amelie", but I haven't been able to find one as good as "La Haine" since I first watched that, any ideas?

Topsy-Turvy

We were given our new brief today and it is as suggested; topsy-turvy, it is just as broad and open to interrpretation as it sounds, so many different directions to go in, so many ideas! I'm really looking forward to properly getting stuck in with using film and trying ridiculous things in the darkroom! It's hard not to be slightly nervous about it though; it's still quite alien to me, everyone else seems to know what they are doing so much more so than I do! However, I'm listening to Midlake and looking through Ofer Wolberger photos and getting thoroughly inspired.

POA

The plan for today is to go on a major vintage rummage and hit every charity shop/antique shop known and easily accessible to me! The fayre is coming up again next week and I flogged some of my other stuff, so I'm running a little low on the vintage stuff; still plenty of handmade if you wanna come along, wink! Also I keep trying to make an Etsy shop but I haven't got a credit card which apparantly I need?! I can't trick it no matter how hard I try! Waaahhh.
Soundtrack of the day; new Matisyahu album, Light, if you haven't already...

Ooh!

Also I've been super good today and stuck to my veganism, but yesterday I had veggie lasange, yes with cheese on, rubbish I know, but tomorrow is a new day! Wish me luck!

Late nights...

I know it's late and I really should be in bed, but I've started getting scared on my own in the flat again! I got over the stupid phobia months ago, now it's back in full force! So it's been a while since my last post (which was super philosophical and whiny, I know!) anyway, lots of stuff has been going on, last Thursday I went to see Thrice in the Solus bar in Cardiff, with Rohan and Sean, Thrice were amazing...did I expect anything else?! Then Friday night I went to see Rohans band play in a place in Treforest, the guys did great but they were playing with a...mismatch of bands to say the least! The whole time I felt like I'd travelled back 5 years; there were people wearing chains around their jeans, chains! I felt like I was at Hawthorne Heights themed party. Anyway, over the weekend Rohan, Mitch and I, travelled to London to see Brand New supported by Glassjaw(insane) and Thrice(again). The whole show was crazy, but Brand New blew me away! They were so good! We met up with Ellie and Jonny who were down for the show aswell, and had a few drinks with them!
It was an awesome weekend but next time I need to go to London for a few days, because travelling there for just one night was hard work! I'm still tired! I'll post the videos from the gigs as soon as I get my arse in gear get them off my camera!

Forgiving.

Am I doing something horribly wrong? Am I hurting anyone? I don't know now. I try to be forgiving and compassionate everyday, I hate holding grudges it makes me feel dark and old. So why is it that I now feel like the bad guy? Shouldn't we live in a world where people where have a chance of redemption?

Lily

also found this lovely picture of Lily Cole earlier; how pretty?!

Late nights...

So I spoke to my ex-boyfriend Tom tonight and I wish we'd stayed friends. Fair enough going out wasn't exactly all good, but we used to have so much fun as friends and I miss it! We still have a connection and we still get on really well, but he's horrible about Rohan, although not to my face anymore admittedly, and I know Rohan feels...weird about me talking to Tom but he's still my friend no matter what's happened. Hmmmm...is it stupid to even being worrying about these things? Instead, I really should be snuggled up between the sheets.

Freecycle.

The best thing I've ever seen offered on freecycle "lots and lots of horse manure", some of the stuff posted on there is brilliant, some not so appealing!
What's the funniest thing you've seen offered or wanted on freecycle?

Going vegan...

is a shit load harder than I thought it would be.

mmmmmmmm

Inspired

It's been a while since I've had a really good blog browse and today I came across some beauties! Most of them fashion blogs, which have encouraged me to be a little more outgoing with what I wear and possibly do an outfit post? Probably not though, it doesn't seem it when other people do it but I'd feel horribly vain doing one, especially because most of what I wear is very very boring!
I applied for a job in the library in town today, I hope I get it, how fab would it be to work in a library?! One day I want a library in my house, with books from floor to ceiling and a ladder with wheels on, like in Beauty and the Beast! I found a couple of lovely old books of Rohans grandads the other day (the flat is like aladdins cave for stuff ike that!), my favourite being "The Conquest of Time" by H.G Wells, which sends me to sleep when I try to read it, my brain can only take intelligent literature in tiny chunks!

Today...

a day for sorting my life out, not being so lazy and actually leaving this room!

Trinkets

Seeing as I have been a slob when it comes to uni, I figured I'd do something vaguely productive, so I took photos of some vintage and some handmade trinkets that I'm going to put up on Etsy. Now to make an Etsy shop, something I've been struggling with for a while because I am hopeless. Who knows if anyone will actually buy them, but it's worth a go!
handmade
handmade
vintage (tempted to keep it!)
vintage
handmade
vintage

Square one...

So I vowed to get better with attending uni and all, because last semester I was awful. But I've already missed two days from being stupidly ill, I need to buckle down/man up, take some flu tablets and be on my way.

Must be funny, in a rich mans world...

Why is it that money problems all seem to bundle together and pounce on you at the exact same time, couldn't it be spread out a little? I went overdrawn by 4 pounds the otherday and fair enough it was my fault, but then I couldn't get in touch with the bank because of the snow and lack of people working there, so then they decide to take my overdraft off me without telling me, now instead of being £4 overdrawn I'm now £104 overdrawn, and have hundreds of pounds worth of charges for it, surely that's not my fault and I shouldn't have to pay it? If there is a god in any shape or form, now may be a good time to pop in and lend a hand, or some money.

Brrrreeuuughhh!

I know it's very pretty and fun to play with but I'm cold! Waaahhhh.

Late, for a very important date!

A quick post before I head to my parents for the night (the land of no internet access because my brother is alway on it) I have a doctors appointment in the morning, to try to sort out my numerous annoying ailments, and a date this evening with the third twilight book, which are far better than expected!
I leave you with a photo of a man who for some inexplicable reason turn me to jelly.

Fayre

It hasn'tbeen quite as manic as I thought getting organised for the fayre, once I'd started sorting through everything I realised I had a bit more to my name than I thought. Sophie and I have spent alot of time making some jewellery, she provides the raw materials and I get to work! She does losts of far cuter craftier things than I do, lots of embroidery and drawing, all I do is buy lots of old junk and hope someone will buy something!
New years eve was such a good night, although alot of it was fuzzy, all I remember is lots of drinking and giggling and lovely friends around me, except for Emma who I must meet up with soon, I've abandoned her.
So the news on my car is; absolutely nothing, still no money means leaving it alone and cold in the car park until I can do something about it.

Oh I also have quite a bad chest infection which means I've spent most of my day looking at photos of Jean Seberg, so it's not all bad.

2010

hello new year.